BrOwnIcOle wAndeRiNg Up thE clOuD

Orz...

I don't really know what should I do now.
Just heard from my boss said that Colcci, the new firm, wanted to closed Tufi Duek. That means I will not have the current job no more. So I either need to find a new one during this bad economic period within a month or I need to leave the country to somewhere else...

The thing started like we got the rumor from an insider said that the new boss told them to hold the new collection that was supposed to send to us recently. And then our designer, Tufi, told my boss some rumors that his good friends who worked at the same firm got laid off just days ago; so suddenly, the news of closing Tufi Duek has became real.

However, the new firm just keeps us hanging here days after, with no exactly answer, like nothing changes but got no merchandise to show to our clients for placing orders.

so... should I start job hunting or just hanging still or packing my stuff to get ready to leave??

Since I started working as a legal worker in the States last Octorber, my payroll can't afford my life expenses anymore, because I contribute one third of my salary to Uncle SAM.

Therefore, I can't dine out as often as I can, none shopping for a long long time, especially just came back from a trip, spent all my saving....... well, not really have any savings anyway.

I start to go to Chinatown with friends, where I never requested to go before.  Friends were all shocked and wondered where is the "real Nicole", but what can I do.... you gotta change when the environment changes around you with bad condition, right. I can say I am easily to fit in any situation as long as the place above some specific levels. (Although I was doubted all the restaurants that my friends listed for me, and hardly can choose any from them....)

However, with a hard life, all you can do just find some love to fill out the emptiness and the tough time. I found someone who makes me warm, makes me laugh, makes me feel that I am important and I am needed. That makes me feel so great!!

Happy New Year, everyone!!!

It's been so long to get on the site to write my life here.... things still going on and I would say it's going busy and very well...

Not so much to do at work, so I spent lots time doing researches for my travel plans while I at work. After work, hanging out with friends still and more, recently met a good guy that enjoy the moment with him pretty much.

We talk a lot, text each other often, seeing each other at least two times a week, he is a very thoughtful and sweet guy. He cares about what kinda wine I like and prepare it for me. He chose the type of movie I like and went watch it with me (even he fell asleep for couple minutes and began to snore ><), well ... the movie was really not good, it's sort of a silent film, because the only dialogues was like 5 minutes only and nothing more... He cooks dinner for me and prepare entertainments. He asks my opinion for his new apt and go shopping together. We celebrated Hanukkah, had a traditional Hanukkah meal, and had gift exchange, it's sort of like X'mas to them. He taught me Spanish for my trip, texted me a lot while I was away for the holidays and sent me greetings from elephant while he was in the zoo with his family. ^^

All the things he did/do are considering me, and I never feel this happy and fulfill for a long long time. I am really really HAPPY !!!

每次到這來寫都覺得時光飛逝
胡亂的忙來忙去
日子也一天天的過下去
生活其實增添不少色彩

老是擔心生活會不會過的太自在
或多采多姿導致大家羨慕或忌妒
捫心自問
可這就是我所追求的生活阿
讓自己處在一個無壓力的環境
享受每一刻我所置身的場合
快樂的度過每一分鐘
其實並不容易
且不是人人都做得到
但如果我在紐約的生活不是我想要過且可盡力享受的話
我又何必這樣辛苦的呆在紐約

每個人的生活目標不同
有的要專心賺大錢
有的要有美滿家庭
有的要找到Mr/Miss Right
有的等待錢賺夠了後去實現夢想

我
只想開心度過生活的每一分鐘
雖然錢賺的不多
夢想卻在實現 

Time flies so fast that just a blink, a month passed....

Got a good friend visited me for a week in the beginning of this month, afterward, got sick like almost.... almost two weeks, then coming the Thanksgiving long weekend. Never get it but always like these... while you sick, your work get busier than usual and then you were like burning two heads candle altogether.

SO i was burning myself into the boring-no-one-comes sample sale for three days, got less a hundred customers came, shop little, tried on little... good that we didn't need to stand there all day long, and I was like reading a book that related to nothing about work at the counter. Just enjoy my moment!!

This year's Thanksgiving, just as usual,  a 4 day holiday got no wherelse to go, so I stuck hard in NYC. Dinner at Wayne's, made a brownie cake myself. Friday was more interesting, went to MOMA tried to see Van Gogh, but the tickets were sold out, so we went to MAD (Museum of Art & Design) to see some art crafts, which included some interesting works. Saturday, slept whole day, went to dinner with a friend from Buffalo, walked around LES, Soho and WV, ended up at Pravda, Russian bar.

Today, raining day, the end of November, 2008. Went to gym for some work out and rest of the rest.

Uploaded the photos at Halloween, showed the photos to sister, got her words said that my dad won't get mad at those funny photos.... so there they are  http://nicoleyu3.pixnet.net/album/set/14179272, Please don't use them in other uses (I don't know what it might be, but pls just don't..... ok!!)

-- 你可以躲藏在自己的偽裝下，細細審視你的痛苦

-- scorpios are sensual, sexy and mesmerizing. they're loyal and sweet to the very end. they're highly intelligent have a quick wit. all the scorpios I know are adventurous, curious and very loving.....   (that's sooo true ^^)

今年的萬聖節裝扮
完整了我人生的不足
讓我覺得已此生無憾了

如同以往不太在意萬聖節的我
在萬聖節前一天
還不知道該去哪派對
該打扮成啥麼模樣
心想當天如果真無派對可去
大可呆在家裡閱讀
(上星期的生日週超級忙碌，我還是看完了三本中文書，當真嚇到我自己...)

10/30，萬聖節前一日
老闆去Jury Duty (10/29-10/31)
只剩我獨自一人在公司又無工作可做
中午無聊至極時
打電話約朋友想一起午餐
朋友聊到待會想要到Costume的店去逛逛
想想我也沒事做去瞧瞧也無不可
答應後就離開公司回家吃午餐看DVD消磨時間

在相約時間出現後
我們三人走進偌大的"什麼都有"服裝造型店
裡面已經塞了滿滿的要買萬聖節裝扮的顧客
要結帳的人潮已經繞了一圈又一圈
我們也感受到裝扮自己的好玩性
竟也開心尋找靚爆的服裝上身
如果真沒派對可去
也可相約走在路上或到bar喝酒感受氣氛
畢竟整個紐約市會瘋狂到一個不行

一個半小時的尋覓
跟店內要購買裝扮的人潮推擠閃躲
試過可以試戴穿的服裝面具或假髮配件
我們三人手上都各拿了幾樣好玩的道具
爲了隔天未知數的派對作準備

結完帳出了店門口已經下午4點
在門口看到大排長龍的人潮(約有50人以上吧)
等著進店裡採購奇裝異服
我們喜孜孜的對看
心想好險早到已經買完要離開
否則這一排不知道要到何年何月
才能踏進店裡尋找服裝並結完帳離開
想必絕對是百分百的耗時又耗力

10/31 星期五, 萬聖節當天
老闆又不在公司
雖然我有幾件公事待處理
卻跟幾位朋友MSN(老闆在時，這可是禁止的哩)
中午還跟朋友出去午餐一小時半
下午回公司後連事情都不想做
老是不自覺地想像著我著裝後會是啥樣
竟跟老闆要求要早走

下班後回家小睡一下
就開始精心打扮我的特殊造型
等到要出門跟朋友碰面時
我卻不敢踏出門口一步
因為我住的區域看不到任何人奇裝異服
我怕自己太過顯眼會吸引太多目光
結果我想太多.....

因為當天
不論我經過哪裡
人們的目光總是離不開我
一直都是眾人注目的焦點
吹口哨的對象
話題圍繞的中心
手甚至會禁不住地想伸向我
坐地鐵時
整節車廂都瞪著我的服裝瞧
害我尷尬到狂玩手機遊戲
佯裝我一點都不在乎眾人眼光
行人趴在餐廳的玻璃外
眼睛動也不動的直盯著我
連路上行駛的車輛都會注意到我
並對我大喊及按喇叭

我只能說
我的妝扮大成功
完完全全的征服紐約

今年的生日原本想自己躲到多倫多度過
(懼怕那種派對隔日控制不了的空虛感)
但是卻完全不想讓自己孤單到這種程度
只好硬著頭皮在生日當週才找派對地點
一點都不擔心朋友已經有約或無法出席

恰巧地是上週有新朋友帶我去新lounge
氣氛感覺味道地點群眾全都對了我的味
除了地方小比較擁擠外(卻也正符合我今年要辦"小趴"的心願)
就在那舉辦了我人在紐約第五屆生日派對

昨天晚上吃完自煮的無料橄欖油蒜味義大利麵後
興沖沖地準備要吃一個從日本超市買回來的布丁當甜點
打開看後
發現布丁好特別喔
有一條條的東西在裡面加料

試吃ㄧ口後，發現是鹹的
才頓時驚覺到這原來是個"茶碗蒸"來的
當我一邊在懷疑茶碗蒸能否冰冰的吃時
一邊就順手打開烤箱把它丟進去了(因為家裡沒有微波爐)

哪ㄓㄧ個小小的茶碗蒸竟要花超過30分鐘來加熱
等到它熱騰騰的上桌後
慢慢享用有著筍子，香菇、蟹腳還有魚翅的"甜點"
心中滋味百感交集ㄚ

在回紐約前，台灣朋友都擔心我會不會回來工作就沒了 (因為美國經濟大跌)，怕我公司撐不住已經將我開除

沒想到進公司後，當我職代的實習生跟我說" 老闆超擔心我不回來這個鳥辦公室，替這鳥公司工作"....

看來我在老闆心目中的地位還頗重要的嘛@@