幾個月前因緣際會下加入了個馬戲團
簽合約時有些許的躊躇及不安感
但因為需要有工作才能繼續留在歐洲
我就放膽地試了在歐洲的第一份工作
進來後才知踏進了無底深淵
沒有員工訓練就開始上工
沒有後援沒有團隊的支持
除了一個很忙的訓獸師偶而指點一下
其他一切自己摸索碰撞
甚至感受到
其他團員並沒有把我當成員工
而是把我當成馬戲團表演者之一
是個在西方世界少見的東方怪咖 (from far far east)
團員說著西方世界的語言
我被當成傻子啥鬼話都聽不懂
工作上會不定時面對老虎跟獅子的咆嘯
毫無由來的被抓傷或甚至噴滿一臉口水
對於無法理性溝通及對話的野獸們
受過的傷及委屈完全無人過問
只能在馬戲團外場找朋友訴苦啜泣
每過幾天就會上演團員們互相幹譙彼此
不懂世界第五大語言的我
這時完全可以當聾啞人士
繼續做我自己認為重要的事
但內心卻不斷吶喊著WTF am I staying here?
游尼可找到的工作好像都讓人覺得非常有趣（或是只有我自己這樣覺得）
前幾天看了一個推拿師，第二次就診，他對我也多了一些些的了解∼ 見面第一句話就是「最近還有走很多路嗎？」（
診療期間幫我扎了幾針針灸，結束後他說「
他的結語是我的身體已經被我操過頭了，我的血小板使用殆盡，
因為我腳後跟的受傷程度基本上就像有一根針插在我的腳底或手指頭那種等級的痛，我卻絲毫沒有感受到。可見我的痛感神經已經敗壞，
他說我能做的就是多休息，這也是他無法幫我做的，
At my previous job:
9:00pm, I m heading home
directly from the office because of the whole day working exhaustion.
At my current job:
9:00pm, I m heading home
after watching a movie with friends after work
after a swimming lesson after work
after a nice dinner with friends after work
after a nice haircut for a date tomorrow after work
Within the two-three hours difference, I could do so many things after work, what the hell I wanna stay in the office doing unreasonable straggling with no extra pay but a terrible take-out-dinner or maybe only hunger.
so, what's not to like "my current job"??!!
me........ got an raise today, after 5 months crazily working for the nuts, finally got a lit paid off and make me feeling better...
Last Sunday, I quitted my job in the afternoon through phone call to my boss, why that hurried, it's Sunday, right?!!
The truth is, I had been working for the job on Saturday and Sunday, since we got some business partners visiting Taiwan from Japan the coming Monday. That two days, I turned on my laptop after I woke up and started making phone calls or sending emails to Japan. In the evening of Sat, before I entering a restaurant that was a family dinner to celebrating my niece's birthday, I got a phone call from my boss again. Then in that half an hour, I had to walk in and out of the restaurant to deal with things that my boss had me to do, since our table had NO Bars that can't make any phone calls or receive.
On Sunday, after making so many phone calls, I took a rest and went to kitchen to have lunch with my family. After I finished it, got back to my room and receive the phone call that my boss just made. He blamed me that I did not make the phone call to make changes with the driver, which I have not called him but will do in the next couple of minutes. He hung up right away after that said sentence with I can't even do the small things. I.... me.... speechless and then a fire from my heart came right up to my brain. I can't take it no more, I've been working for you like this, and he blamed me for this freaking little tiny phone call that I have yet to call.
So I called him right back, he did not pick up the first call, but the second. I asked if he really thinks I can't even do things right, he say yeah, then I said, well... then it would be better if I quit the job since you think I ain't qualify at all. He said FINE, and then I ended up by saying I will go to office on Monday and pack my stuffs.
After an hour, he called back, I don't want to answer it. Started feeling better just by saying I quit, feel the world is so pretty, the sky is so blue, the weather is so great and so on.
I went out, to do my pedicure as I made the appointment days ago, trying to shop, but ain't got anything. I made the call back to my boss like two hours later, he wanted me to go to office on Monday and we will talk from there.... I decided to give him a chance.
But still, I bought a bottle of white wine and back home after finished my pedicure, had a nice dinner with my family and requested them to have a drink with me. It was also my little cute niece's 10 yo birthday, so we also celebrated it with a homemade bake passion fruit chocolate cake in the shape of a horse.
What an interesting weekend!!
you know what... because the wind was so crazy this morning, and I was wearing a dress.
So when I arrived the entrance of MRT, the wind blows, suddenly .... just like the Marilyn Monroe movie, my skirt flying up, I was covering my front side of the skirt immediately, but i knew someone or a few people really had an enjoyable moment at that specific minute in this early morning.
According to my co-woker said, I just gave them the early Merry X'mas gift today....
The funny part was, when I woke up that day, I kept telling myself that the wind outdoor is blowing heavily, I shall not wear dress at all but jeans. When I got out of my house, me standing there with a new dress that I bought long time ago but never had a chance to wear... so,
oh well... people in Taiwan, enjoy the scene as much as you can while I am still in Taiwan, for now...
Two weeks ago, we just moved into a new office. On a Friday, the same week after we moved in, I got a call from my boss's girl friend from another office. She started yelling all the problems in my new office and questioning that why no one can handle all this tiny little shitty things on the phone at me. For about 10 mins continuing yelling, I can't stand no more and said to her with calm and peaceful voice "Ms. xxx, I don't know where all these problems came from and I don't know who is in charge to handle all these, but please stop blaming me....I ain't the one you should blame at" She stopped for a few seconds, then said she's not blaming at me, just asking. After shouting out loud "Give me my trip schedule right away!!" she hung up my phone immediately.
Ever since, I started living in the hell in the office ... don't really wanted to describe all the freaking little things that she was picky on me.
Oh well.... we will see what is going to be happened to me then.
Today, me and my co-workers went for lunch and got a bill of 666, all the girls was happy to see this number but me, because 666 is meant "devil" in the western world. Needless to say, today is Friday, the 13th.....
June 23rd, a brand new day that I could start using my iPhone "AS A PHONE" again!!!
While I was happy waiting for the bus to get home after work on the other night. The bus came, I was the last one to step into the bus, while I stepped on the first stair, the bus door suddenly closed, I was STUCK between the doors, SHOCKED. The bus driver then found out what he has done, open the door right away, but it's too late that I still got hurt from the door pressed tight on my arms. He then said sorry for me several times, but I was like motionless....
I did not get it why he needed to closed the door that damned quickly, did he need to rush back to the station to win something? or there was time limit that they can't be delayed? or WHAT... I totally don't get the heck out of it...
Seemed like they think my life is not fun enough, so I need some excitement from them to make my life more interesting??!!
A couple days ago, my niece, who is in her 3rd grade, needed to make an idiom "萬馬奔騰" in a sentence for her homework.
After she asked all the members in the family that night, no one can come up with a good sentence for her.
Then she went to toilet, while she was pooping, she came up a sentence like this "我的便便萬馬奔騰從我屁屁跑出來了", and kept yelling and yelling till she finished the job...
We were all sitting in the kitchen, wordless .....
All of a sudden, I got interviews three days in a row, and it was more than one a day...
I don't know what's going on in Taiwan's job market, I know I did not update my profile for a very long time.
Suddenly, last week, I got phone calls everyday for an interview by different types of companies and for different positions.
I was happy, but after I quit my job (which it's not ended yet), I seriously need to go for a vacation for no reason ^^
Just afraid that I would have a vacation long after I got a new job, so I need to just go out right after the old job...
I told those interviewers that I can only work for them until late April if they wanted me, they were like.... "oh hell... so what would we do now?"
Well... you have to wait, if you like me so much (which in my point of view I truly believe that!)
In addition, I do not care so much if they don't wait for me to come back... I got some back-up plans already. ^^
I couldn't change my plan and definitely have to get away right NOW, right this moment...
Thank God I made plans to travel, otherwise, I will not have a slightly chance to travel in-between jobs.
我超級害怕
我們家會因
天氣潮又濕
牆壁狂流汗
而導致淹水
不知明天一早起床時
我是否漂流在壁汗中
ewwwwwww
A summer day like today would always recall some great memories that I had spent with someone. Wanted to write it down so I would never forget about it for the rest of my life because most of them are really deserved to be played in my mind over and over again.
I was riding a bike today to the near by neighborhoods, the only exercise I can have without going to a gym. Despite the terrible traffic, air-pollution on the streets, biking is an easy, effective and fun work out for me. Then I recalled....
Story 1
One summer day in NYC last year, me and S took a ferry to an island, Governor Island, which is only opened to the public few days a week and four months a year probably. It is so closed to Manhattan, only 10 mins ferry away, FREE, Staten Island took like 30 mins. You can actually walk through the whole island, but riding a bike there could make you enjoy the island more. So we spent an hour waiting in line to rent the bikes. While we waiting, a girl two groups in front of us was staring S so damned hard, maybe jealous or whatsoever, that I only took S's arm more tightly and showed he is occupied by ME.
Anyways, after we got the bikes, I was riding it like crazy, speedy, screaming and no arms on the handles at all time. S was worried about the safty of me and the passengers on the road, but I know what I was doing, and fully enjoyed the Summer-like wind blowing on my face and body. What a great moment.
When we got to the view point, where you can see the Statue of Liberty, we put on our sheet on the grass and started our picnic. There were my favorite white wine, brie, baguette and something more... I remembered I was a bit drunk, maybe because too much wine or the sun-bathing too much, I dancing and jumping with kids on the taxi beach after we finished picnicing.
A lovely beautiful summer afternoon in 2009!!
在前兩天我爸媽出遠門
在南部小玩了個三天時
我一周講不到三句話的哥
竟然在我跟朋友吃飽喝足
午夜回家時發現他在等門
連續兩天讓我的心超級甜
當我問他說“你在等我門喔？“
他卻說年紀大了睡不著
但爸媽在家時他卻沒這困擾ㄚ
且在我回家沒多久後
他就關燈上樓睡覺去
您說說這不是等門那這是啥？
A couple days ago, I asked him to put on mirrors that I got from IKEA to hang on the wall in my room, he got the tools on Monday and was waiting for my return so he can get into my room to put them on. I did not know he was waiting for me and went back home around 11:30pm, but he said no word just asked me where to hang and then did his job quietly. After he done, he disappeared right away.
He is such a sweet person but never said it out loud.
Always shows what he cares by action directly and only.
That's my brother... so sweetttttt!!!
Something unbelivable happened today...
My boss, who was a famous TV somethin'... left me a idiom at work that I can't believe people will say that to another person just because what I did.
Here it went...
I sent an email to a Japanese client asked to return goods that was not selling good in our stores and that was what my boss asked me to do while we had a meeting before CNY.
And I got the reply from the client today said if we wanted to return goods, they wanted to do it vice versa, since they brought something from us that is not a good selling as well.
I left the response on my working diary, after a few hours later, I saw this next to the response...
"所以我從來就不覺得該問人家退貨、因為根本不可能、也是沒常識的問法。下次寫信前請想清楚、不要自取其辱吧"
I was like....%$@%&^$#@!!*(&%#
Did she just slap her face in front of me? Why she has to blame herself that badly?
Also 自取其辱 shouldn't be seen or heard at a workforce, right? Especially, that's not a fxxxking terrible question but stupid tho.
沒過中國農曆新年已經有5年了
早已忘了過新年要穿新衣戴新帽
忘了過年前要打掃家裡裡裡外外
忘了除夕夜要吃長年菜好活的長久
忘了魚要吃剩才會年年有餘
忘了初一要到廟裡祈求新的一年國泰民安
忘了全家人團聚在一起是多麼幸福的事
在紐約的5年半裡
每一年除夕夜都是跟朋友一起渡過
一點點過中國農曆年的年味都沒有
圍爐年夜飯吃完後就各自解散回家
沒有一起看紅白對抗守夜到子時
更沒有放鞭炮好趕走年獸這回事
回到台灣後
家人卻是我最在乎
是我生活的原動力
所有一切活動都以家人為中心
超級熱衷於跟家人一起吃飯
因為我家人的嘴都超級挑食
不論在家吃或是出外上餐廳
進入嘴裡的全都是一流食物
在自己家吃都超級豐盛
龍蝦ㄚ花蟹ㄚ上等牛肉
時常都可在餐桌上看到
要出外上館子吃飯
也全是好吃的料理
不一定是高級餐廳
不過一定是好料滴
就這樣從小養壞了我的嘴！！
瞧瞧我們家今年除夕夜的年菜吧, Feb 13, 2010
The walls in my house are sweating heavily when it is raining outside...
Date: Jan 3rd-5th, 2010
Place: Phi Phi Island, Thailand
Weather: All men are topless therefore no need for hot water
Jan 3rd,
We were supposed to visit the island only for a day, but once I stepped on the island, I changed my mind immediately.
Our Thai friend negotiated with the cruise agents for an hour, trying to get us, three foreigners, same as local ticket price, half of the foreigner's price. unbelivable right??!!
Anyway, that's not the point, but there were at least 8 boats, three stories boat, sailing from Phuket to PP at the same time, includes thousands of people visiting the island per day. I was so shocked to see all these visitors gathered at the port in such a short time and we were heading to the same destination. When we arrived, I saw the island full of men, topless, young, sunny-like, healthy, and last but not least all westeners. I felt like I was in HEAVEN right away. All the cute shops, old fashion snack shops, beaches in 20 mins walking distance, what's not to like?!!
In the afternoon, our local PP friend, took us to a beach that had no tourists to have BBQ there. We enjoyed the fresh seafood, no disturbing sunbath, transparent sea, old coconut fire, and a super warm-friendly bartender that owns the whole beach. We spent too much time enjoying that wonderful moment, leaded us to the unforgettable journey later the day.
We were trying to walk to the view point at Phi Phi island, but somehow, we went to the wrong direction and walked straight to the jungle. It was raining heavy, the darkness started to cover the island until we couldn't see anything ahead us within my arm length. We were getting worried and walking faster and faster that trying to keep everyone got out of the mystery place. After two hours, we saw the light in the house, we were running in the dark jungle asking for help........ Anyway, we found a guy who lived there, but he couldn't help us at all, so we kept walking to the direction he gave us. After another 20 mins walking, we saw some restaurants that opened.
We asked one of the owner of the restaurants for help, he told us we were already acrossed the whole jungle to another side of the island. We have to walk back the way leaded us there, because there was no boat that could take us back to the other side. Our Thai friends trying so hard to pursuade him to help us, we were definitely not walking back through the jungle again. He did his best, so after 30 mins, the boat came to rescue us, we walked to the boat for quite a distance in the water, then heading back to where we lived in the damned darkness night....
The worst part has yet to come, after we back to the hotel with two hours soaking under the heavy rain with thunder, we only needed a hot shower, but you know what..... most of the hotels in the island do not offer hot water, included ours... so u know how many dirty words came out from me that night!!
Quite a long day, right? But not ended yet, we still went out after the cold shower &%$#$%, and then had a huge huge supper around 10:30pm, the food was still the best part in the whole trip.
Jan 4th,
Me and E decided to give PP island the second chance to change our mind that it is a creepy jungle island and only, so we stayed one more day at PP. The truth was, there were too many cute topless guys in the island that we couldn't take our eyes out off them.... Jk... The truth was, we enjoyed the PP had to offer, the walking distance to the beaches, shopping streets, local restaurants etc. We couldn't just leave without breath the island's smell, enjoy the convenience to everywhere and spend more time with my new friend, Kwan.
So we got a Thai massage, cheap, shopped a lot, seriously, with Thai friend's help, we could almost buy two items in one item's price. Went to a friend's party boat where he was working, had afternoon snacks there, drinking, and jumping into the sea. Got invited to K's friend's B-day party, had dinner and tried my first bamboo shot. Saw Kwan's performance, excellent fire shows. At the end of the night, dancing crazy under the rain at the rooftop club...
Jan 5th,
I woke up early only to find time to lay on the beach for a while, then had a lunch at the local coffee shop watching the topless show. The sun was quite hot, but I enjoyed it and felt that moment was the most enjoyable moment and so relaxing. No need to hurry to somewhere, only sitting there and used my eyes to follow the crowds. Great people watching spot!!
Around noon, we got on boat, and heading back to Phuket. Well... we had a wonderful Thai-French cuisine for dinner and spent all our money there...
