BrOwnIcOle wAndeRiNg Up thE clOuD

I got my TV channels back...
For a whole month without watching TV
my life was so miserable that nobody can image it.

村上春樹寫「雪梨」，寫的是奧運選手在現實生活和榮耀世界之間的糾葛。他寫到，氣球飛在天空很漂亮，但如果沒有綁在地面上，它就會飄走了。

我最早以為自己會娶文藝美少女，可是後來我想，這樣兩個人就會像兩個氣球，飄到遙遠的天空。我不是海明威那種作家，我是要和日常生活奮鬥的，而她(指他老婆)是踏在地上的那種人，氣球綁在上面，有不會飄遠的安全感...

just a week passed
New York is down to 20something degrees now
so fast that you can't feel it is about to come but changes right away

Summer is no longer exist
I have not been to any beach in New York this summer yet
but lost chances for whatsoever

I was at R train on the way home from Century 21, best shopping store in NYC, where I can't find anything I want for an hour. When the train arrived 8th street, NYU station, the door opened and you were leaning against the wall. I guess you are street performer and you were taking a break from ur last performance because your instrument just right next to you.
 

想了兩週一直想要買新沙發的我
既前兩天因太想要而睡不著
所以在昨天清晨選好款式後
二話不說打電話給搬家阿姨
詢問她最近的空閒時間
要馬上殺去New Jersey的IKEA

現在的我就是一個"閑"字可解
整天就在想著
一個人住的家裡
到底還少了些啥
到底還需要啥
可以去哪買到我需要的產品
又不會花掉太多爸媽的血汗錢
(因爲來過我家的朋友們都嫌我家太空曠，連講話都有迴音<會不會太扯阿>....，是該再添購一些傢俱，才有溫馨的家味阿~~)

如果我沒那麼愛你...

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我不會在一年前的秋天
夜夜聽你訴說你的困擾
你對我們未來幸福的遲疑
你所做過但我沒聽過的故事
或你9年來瞞著我所做過的事
我也故作堅強的充當你的心理醫生
甚至幫你尋找藉口理由
爲你分析你之所以會如此這般做的原因
只因我了解你太深太重太久

雖然已經搬進新家整整兩週
但是因為嫂子及兩位可愛的姪女
從搬家的隔天入住到今天
直到早上從機場送完機回來後
把家裡從裡到外整個打掃了一次
現在才有真的真的是一個人住的感覺

It is so bad that I still do not have internet at my new place.
So every night I have to sneak around searching wireless that near my building and then use it to get online to check my email and contact friends in Taiwan...

How idiot I am, I just realized that I was dumped two months ago when you said “we are going to have a break now, because I am so tired of keeping this kind of relationship.” But for me was that I still have a boyfriend but you just so careless about me for such a long time until now.