BrOwnIcOle wAndeRiNg Up thE clOuD

曾幾何時我希望我的個性不要這麼顯露無移，希望隱藏我堅決獨立，愛恨分明，聰明幽默的許多面，而只讓眾人看到我也只是一位需要愛人與被愛的單身女子。

因為我用力的在過每一天，盡情享受這世界提供給我的，已至於我的生活豐富有趣，故事精彩動人，因為這都是我自己的親身體驗！

難道日子過的開心有趣的人反而被這社會不能認同？
因為我花錢不知節制，不知道存錢的重要性？
不知道老了以後只能靠自己當初辛辛苦苦掙來的錢過生活？
還是你們不知可以這樣享受人生過這樣有趣的生活，就這樣忌妒我不認同我?

I know I m a lucky girl who was born in a nice and fairly wealth family, never worry about 'money' issue and have a nice relationship with my family. But that's not my problems that I don't need to save money for the needs of my family. I make money only for myself and buy whatever I can afford and wanted. I never thought I'd been this lucky but hell.... I am this damned lucky and fortunate and being blessed girl that I believe most of the people are wished to be like me~~

我的5月下班周報告

周一回家吃飯做運動

周二彈性基本上不排，這樣就可以回家讀點西文做功課 ( 如有朋友約，就可以排進這一天)

周三西文課

周四看表演或跟朋友吃飯時間(絕對一周前就預訂好)

周五跟朋友吃飯喝酒

周六基本上會先睡個半天覺，下午晚上再來朋友約

周日家庭日不然就是SPA日 (朋友約也可以差進這一天)

現在5月6號，5月的所有週末已經早在4月就全部排滿了

不管因為工作要去花蓮或是要去香港看ART BASEL 藝搏會，週末活動整個滿溢到無法安插進任何約會

週間也只剩5月下半月的幾個晚上是空檔的

光看我的月曆就已經感覺到累了說~~ 

要抽空多睡點覺才可以讓我的皮膚有時間修復好ㄚ!!!!

上週六去聽了一場肯亞的旅遊講座

感覺根本就是動物知識大集合

好好玩的樣子

真不知何時才有機會可以去一趟耶?!

If you can't embrace the differences, how this world will be getting better?

I think I m special or unique in a way, but maybe for others, I m just a very ordinary girl who happens to have bad temper, straight minded and has lots of opinions that no one cares.

Who the hell am I kidding to, of trying to persuade people to accept my point of view also the way of thinking.

I ain't someone special, just a girl who easy to get people dislike or hate for what I m doing. A girl who people can't tolerate my ignorance attitude towards everything. Nothing can piss me off easily... Yeah I think!!

It's you who can decide what your life/future will  become. It might not always dreams come true, but you surely can make it happy or worth-living in every second.

If you want to live a miserable or upset life, pls do it by yourself. No one wants to share your miserable or sadness, except your family.

If you always think of how good it was when we were young, pls remember this.....  Life goes on!!! sweetie, history is history, present and future is more important than what had happened.

If you don't have what others have, so what?! Would you really fit in her shoes if you were her?! Is that what you wanted to be ? Don't be silly.

You already have what is good for u, you already be blessed, you are loved by your family and friends, and you are healthy and no need to worry of anything.

What else you hope for more? Don't be greedy, now is perfect!!

我真的不知道為何有時我要如此逞強，到底是要佯裝堅強給誰看？

如果我一直都不需要朋友就可以過生活的話，這樣誰會需要我這個朋友？大家沒有我也可以過的很好壓！

到底有這麼多規則跟感覺，別人不一定會知道更不可能遵從，我就一個一個將他從我生命中刪除嗎？

Who the hell I think I am to make the rules and made people to follow them?!

今天早上看到同事在秀給別人看她剛從歐洲員旅回來買的一隻Chanel 鑚錶，花了約17萬台幣(台灣價格22萬)，還有買了幾個名牌包blah blah blah 等。隨團的同事也在旁增補說Chanel 店員還請她們喝香檳，受到超VIP的待遇等等故事。

我聽著她們不停的說在國外買省了多少錢等，老實說…… 我真的一點都不羨慕，也沒有覺得她嫁到有錢人家，有好多錢供她花費是一件多麼棒的事。並不是在批評，只是想說………

從自己在學時跟團出國旅遊到後來赴美念書後所經歷的出國旅遊，差異真的改變好大。從前只知道出國玩就是大買特買，國外啥都便宜(台灣啥都貴)，國外啥都有(台灣啥都沒有)，國外啥都厲害。所以出國玩不多買回個行李箱，裝滿整箱的禮物是會對不起朋友、家人的，更別說自己會後悔好多東西沒買因為行李箱裝不下。我曾經是某某團(還兩團公認)的shopping Queen, 相信我爹爹看到我回國時的大行李小行李大行李還有一個大行李時，內心的衝擊不下我說我要嫁人了吧!!

在國外住了幾年旅遊經驗大幅增長，且日常身邊所需的(同名牌商品)，出個門轉個街角就買的到，導致出國旅行後就不喜歡逛街買東西了，因為根本不必要。所以每次出國我的回程行李絕不會大過去程行李多少，不是說出國時的行李就已經很大了 ; )。我真的是一個easy travel的人，應該是旅行太多次、經驗超豐富的結果。很多男生看到我的簡易行李都被嚇到，以為它會是個超級大旅行箱裡裝滿時尚衣裳及超多保養品化妝品等，才能妝飾出我的一身行頭。其實不然，簡單幾件衣服加上不同配件就可以天天搭配出既時尚又有型的穿著，這就是我的穿衣哲學。

回到正題，出國旅遊對我而言已經在精神上轉換層面了。過去的年輕不懂事，只知道不斷的狂買無節制才是王道，才表示此趟出遊沒有遺憾後悔。如今卻只要心靈獲得所需的養分滋潤，感受其他國家民族的生活方式、感受鄉間小路的美、感受大城市的科技設計、感受異國美食、感受百年老街/小河、感受心情在外地的輕鬆無慮就已經非常足夠滿足。至於購物與否真的一點都不重要了，家裡衣櫥裡的難道還不夠我一個人穿嘛??

其實我想說的是，這樣貴的一隻錶，不知道可以改善幾個非洲村落的生活品質阿….

well..... I know you are somewhere out there, we just need time to find each other~~

Because it's not easy to find you among the 7 billion people (and still growing) in the world.

I will be patient and wait until I find you or vice versa...

Hopefully it won't be too long~